Oblivious

• Many times in my life I determined that my days were simply routine and I was oblivious to the world around me. I went from one day to the next just killing time. I sometimes envy the relaxed attitude I displayed on those days.  I  do , however, have  some guilt about the lack of I productivity. during those days. In my undergradutate studies of psychology I would have catorized my thoughts as "self defeating."  While enjoying the lack of pressure or concern, I also found myself ignoring the need to reach a goal. Real satisfaction with life can only be experienced by appreciating every day as a new adventure and the opportunity to produce good for the world.

                                   Careless Time

In contrast to the the protected days of childhood, as a teenager I displayed the normal traites of someone who thought they would live forever. I ,secretly, drove too fast,as a pilot I flew too low,  took unhealthy chances with my friends,  and  imagined that my grandparents had little knowledge of the modern era. It was amazing how my attitude began to change as I matured. and the daring traits I had displayed became more reserved.  My grandparents suddenly knew more about life than I had ever imagined  There was never enough time to hear them talk about how their lives had evolved. They talked about their education experiences ( there was never an opportunity for them to attend  college because they were the hired hands for their family's farms.) I heard both grandfathers say they would like to have had an opportunity to spend more time in school. As I look back in my life, I am thankful for the opportunity I had to actually go to college. I was the first person in the entire family to obtain a college degree.  My grandparents had provided the foundation for my education by working through their college years to develop the resources that were later used for me and my brothers to go to a university.

                                         Lessons

There are many lessons to be learned from the days when I just "killed time'. I think the biggest point from my perspective is to honor God from this point forward in my life. He has provided me the ability now to appreciate the value of time. He, alone, can provide a fruitful purpose for our existance. 

In Hebrews there are some clear instructions for using the available. time in our lives:  (Hebrews 1: 2 " And now in these final days, he has spoken to us through his Son. God promised everything to the Son as an inheritance, and through the Son he created the universe. ³ The Son radiates God’s own glory and expresses the very character of God, and he sustains everything by the mighty power of his command. When he had cleansed us from our sins, he sat down in the place of honor at the right hand of the majestic God in heaven. "

Yes, we all find our selves wasting time, but God is still there in those moments. He provides the  purpose that brings productivity to every moment of life. With the purpose, He provides satisfaction and productivity for Him. It is His purpose that all of our life is judged. If I were judged on those nonproductive days, I would be judged unworthy. It is only through God's grace and purpose for my life that I can really be productive.

In Him

Dean

 Tyndale House Publishers. (2013). Holy Bible: New Living Translation (Heb 1:2–4). Carol Stream, IL: Tyndale House Publishers.